The bad news is since I'm O'ing so late in my cycle Clomid next cycle is a bust. DH will only be around until about CD 8-12. This is really taking all of my letting go and letting God strength not to totally obsess over this. 18 months and 14 cycles of TTC and this is the first time that I KNOW I'm O'ing...assuming it actually happens and isn't a "false start". It was almost positive last night and that looks pretty darn positive today to me. O'ing in the next 24-36 hours would be Friday at the latest, that means testing on....the 22nd if my IC's are here, the 28th if not. I think I'll start taking my temp tomorrow morning so I'll be in the habit of it next month if this month is a bust. I'm really thinking the soy isoflavones had something to do with it. I took the last one on the 27th and 10 days later get an almost positive OPK.
I hope I can convince DH to BD!! He's been going to PT, working, in school to be a flight firefighter at a different military air field, and feeding our friends dogs every morning and night while they are in Birmingham (her dad is in hospice and was taken off the ventilator yesterday). Needless to say he's stressed, not sleeping well, and feels guilty that he doesn't have the energy to love me. Tonight I don't think I'm giving him an option. I don't want to miss this month. I need to know that I've done everything I could possibly do. It'll be easier to have faith and not be mad at myself...
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