Making a new me

I've decided that I really need to make a "new" me. I know when I go to a RE the first thing he is going to say is lose weight. I also know that with PCOS losing weight isn't going to be easy until I get Metformin but I can still try. I may not lose weight until then but I'll be healthier. I know that gestational diabetes and pre-eclampsia can't always be prevented but I want to make sure that I don't get either one because I was too overweight when I got pregnant. So on top of TTC stuff and daily life stuff I'll be posting about how weight loss is going and what I've been eating.

I'm not at my biggest but only a mere 10 pounds away from it. I never thought I would get this big. I promised myself I wouldn't let it happen. In high school I was 105 pounds. I realize now that I was WAY to small and don't want to be there again. My goal as of right now is 145 and once I get there I'll see if I think I should lose more. That's 30 pounds I need to lose. I would love to have it all off before I got pregnant BUT hope I don't. Realistically that should take 4-5 months at least and I really would love to be pregnant before then.

The weight started piling on when I started BC. After being diagnosed with PCOS and reading up on it I understand why it happened. I know I still eat unhealthy and its 80% my fault but it's still nice knowing that there's 20% there that isn't :)

Enough about weight....I went shopping today and am so proud of myself. I bought 5 books, two pairs of shoes (a brown flat sandal with turquoise beads and a pair of black heels that look like lace up wingtips), a gray silk tank top with a design at the top, a fitted gray tweed hip length jacket, and a pair of gray pants. $110 dollars for everything!!! I fell in love with the clothes store. The three things were all really marked down but even regularly they weren't expensive. The jacket was 13 dollars on sale, 36 not. And we bought a dryer today. It was a floor model with a dent in the bottom. $300 dollar discount for a DENT. Big freakin whoop, it still works. Now it won't take 3 hours to dry a load of clothes!!!!

Boatloads of snow

My phone rings at 6 this morning and it's my boss saying "hey don't come in today". Yeh, Southern Alabama, where it hasn't snowed in 17 years has about 6 inches of snow on the ground and doesn't look like it's letting up anytime soon. It's crazy. As I'm sitting here typing my dalmatian is looking at me all pitiful whining then pacing to the door and back. Both he and my lab LOVE the snow and he wants back out NOW. Since I can't resist that pitiful face I guess I'm heading back outside.

Beginnings

I've never done a blog before but I figured it might help me get my mind on straight :) It's been a long road so far and only promises to get even longer. I was diagnosed with endometriosis at 20 after several different doctors and several incorrect diagnosis. I've done the birth control, the Lupron, and the surgeries. I had my third one this past Monday. I was conditionally diagnosed with PCOS in October and it was confirmed in the last lap. We've been TTC for 13 cycles now and it doesn't get any easier. They say things get easier with time, but trust me, infertility doesn't. I have my post-op appointment on March 9th. Hopefully my OBGYN will go ahead and give me Met and Clomid. I feel like I just don't have the time to wait 2 or 3 months until I can get in with a RE to start the medically assisted part. I'm not getting any younger!!! I'm feeling positive about my chances now, I just hope that feeling doesn't go away. When I was younger I was positive I didn't want children ever...I felt that way up until about 3 years ago and now I cannot understand why I ever felt that way.